Thank God, I have a great boyfriend who helped take care of me.
But while I was lying in bed all that time, struggling to breath out of my nose, not hearing out of my clogged ears, unable to speak to anyone, and moaning to myself because I couldn’t get any work done on my days off – I had a thought come to me.
Be still. Be in the moment. Just be…here.
Every other day of the week my mind is constantly racing with a bazillion thoughts and ideas. At my day job, I’m always making lists of the things I want to work on when I get home. At home, I’m constantly Googling things on my phone, scrolling through social media posts of adorable animal videos, or trying to work on more productive things related to my writing or building my business @FemmespireMedia. I’m always obsessing about what I want or fear in the future, or beating myself up for regrets from the past. I’m always thinking ahead but running behind.
In other words:
I am NEVER living in the moment.
But this week while I’ve been sick I’ve HAD TO be still and in the moment. Because I couldn’t do or think about anything else.
The one perk of this sickness, is I got to have some time to enjoy just snuggling with my boyfriend on the couch without me obsessing about what I needed to work on, and play with my beautiful kitty, Kahlo, who seemed to follow me around and lay next to me on the bed more than usual.
And I loved it.
So, although being sick for a week sucks, there was a benefit. Learning to live in the moment; not worrying, regretting, or obsessing about anything, and just being still. Something I have never as an adult been able to do. And something I hope to be able to continue experiencing long after I recover from this sinus infection.
But I won't lie, I look forward to getting back to working on my book and musical and all the other little projects and ideas I have. So, I guess I'm a work in progress. But that's OK too.
As soon as I upload this post, I'll be closing my computer so I can play with my cat (let her chase the laser pointer for a while) and then take a little nap and finish recuperating. It's not an exciting week to say the least, but at least I get the chance to be still inside a little while and "Just be". I hope you will too.